Gypsy Express: Traveling Through Life

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Sun
30
Nov '08

Strawberry Tiles Forever..

These tiles looked simply delicious.

http://fadwas-inspirational.blogspot.com/2008/11/strawberry-tiles-forever.html

Wed
26
Nov '08

Page from my Journal…

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Mon
24
Nov '08

China through his eyes..

My husband made a special effort to take photos with a creative perspective just so that I could post them on my blogs. I hope you like this serene scene from China:

http://fadwas-inspirational.blogspot.com/2008/11/china-through-his-eyes.html

Sat
22
Nov '08

wonderful life..

Mon
17
Nov '08

The Gypsy says…

“Risk! Risk anything! Care no more for the opinion of others, for those voices. Do the hardest thing on earth for you. Act for yourself. Face the truth.”

- Katherine Mansfield -

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Sun
16
Nov '08

ثلاث قصص من مجموعة يوميات كائنات صغيرة

يوميات‮ ‬ كائنات صغيرة

 أخبار الأدب - القاهرة - 16 نوفمبر 2008

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Sat
15
Nov '08

Dreaming & Waiting

The lovely bird of paradise:  http://fadwas-inspirational.blogspot.com/2008/11/dreaming-and-waiting.html

Wed
12
Nov '08

The Loop

The

Loop

 

They all sat with transparent cylinders between their lips – a little implement which the waiter called a “mabsam” but which is nothing more than a simple plastic tube a couple of inches long, as opposed to the “mabsam” my grandfather often spoke of using in his prime, which was made of wood and embellished with mother of pearl, or elaborately engraved and decorated.They sat playing their water instruments like musicians in an orchestra. Floating amongst them was the delicious aroma of the Bahraini honeyed-apple tobacco. Ahmed was the center of the attraction, alternately expelling smoke from his nose and words from his mouth. Apparently he had only just returned, and not without great difficulty.The men did not ask him about his family, as women would have. Perhaps because Ahmed did not mention his family his friends assumed them to be fine or at least still in the world of the living. And no one asked him about his house, on the building and furnishing of which he had spent much of his monthly salary for the past seven years; for if his house had been demolished or exploded what could be done about that now? Rather, the long monologue was more of a detailed, descriptive account of the very bad treatment Ahmed had faced when crossing the borders to

Gaza.As I listened, I could feel the insult and the subjugation which he must have felt. I could feel the scars and the crippling pain caused by the blows of his words. He was very skilled at choosing his words, something which had a profound effect on me . . .  provoking me. The fact that he had no choice but to return, repeatedly, only to be subjugated, broken and yet remain proud, was an image that left me disfigured and impaired.Ahmed finished his story and surrendered, like his listeners, to the lure of the smoke. I could no longer hear the hubble-bubble of the water in the belly of the shishas. The atmosphere thickened with smoke and silence while the nicotine of Ahmed’s words coated my lungs.One of Ahmed’s friends decided to offer some words of comfort: “Hey, never mind, it’s normal . . .”, to which Ahmed replied: “I know, I know. It’s normal.” It’s just that this time it was more than the normal normal.” 

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I was eavesdropping from the beginning, stealing glances at their table on my right. I envied the waiter who could hover around like a ghost, or like a secret listening device. I blame my passion for life’s details on these little thoughts of mine. I do admit that pushing my ears into other people’s stories at cafeterias such as this was, for me, very normal – and I admit, also, that prior to this moment, I had not given this very usual, ordinary word a second thought . . . and that it had never before caused me pain such as that which splits my head right now.I felt it was only yesterday that I was a little girl wrapped up in my father’s coat and the smoke of his pipe. I felt as if I was being faced with this word for the first time. I searched in vain for those specific, invisible junctures in my life after which everything abnormal became simply normal.I searched in vain for the day after which my rights were transformed into exceptions, which I became accustomed to checking regularly in order to ascertain their presence, or as is the usual case, their absence.I searched in vain.Does this mean I was born this way? Crippled? With stumps where my rights were supposed to be?  

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Ahmed aborted his experience on the table in front everyone. He may have believed himself to be returning to his normal norm, but I felt their conversation was moving from one topic to another like a fly, hovering again and again over the abortion whose stench began to overwhelm the aroma of the honeyed tobacco. I felt nauseous. I wondered how long it would take me this time to convince myself that I was smelling only the aroma? Would I need to be stronger? Or weaker?I remained seated. I was not the only one crippled.They remained seated. The plastic tubes between their lips.

We simply remained as usual. And, as usual, we practised our habit of further reducing the time we needed to get accustomed to new negativities, until they, too, become new norms that sat amongst us, sharing with us this rot of an inheritance to which we have become accustomed.

Fadwa

(one of my Arabic short stories which I translated into English)

Tue
11
Nov '08

A page from my Journal

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Mon
10
Nov '08

The Gypsy Says …

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“When I hear somebody sigh, ‘Life is hard,’

I am always tempted to ask, ‘Compared to what?’”

Sat
8
Nov '08

Layers of strength

I am still learning how to use my camera – after all this time. But I am enjoying the results anyway!  

  

http://fadwas-inspirational.blogspot.com/2008/11/layers-of-strength.html

Fri
7
Nov '08

In Search of Fatima

In Search of Fatima

Ghada Karmi

Autobiography

I thoroughly enjoyed this book. One on hand it provided me with so much background information which I was lacking about the history of

Palestine since just before its occupation. One the other hands, I could identify with the author’s feelings of alienation and struggle with her own identity – something which I still feel, and which I also feel lives within my children.

Book reviews:

BC Blogcritics Magazine 

The Independent Books

WRMEA.com

There’s lots more reviews, this is just a selection.To read one of my own stories about feelings of alienation, click Arabic or English translation.  I got In Search of Fatima from

Dubai bookshops, but it’s also available at Amazon of course.

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Come inside…

Sometimes life feels so final, and sometimes it feels like life is just escaping my grasp. 

Come inside: http://fadwas-inspirational.blogspot.com/2008/11/come-inside.html

Thu
6
Nov '08

Thursday’s Listmania…

What defines my identity?

My nationality?

My religion?

What I do for work?

What I write?

My gender?

My social position?

My financial status?

My looks?

What I say?

What I do?

My smiles?

Who I smile to?

My mistakes?

Wed
5
Nov '08

Are bloggers narcissists?

Tue
4
Nov '08

Collage Page from my Journal..

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Mon
3
Nov '08

The Gypsy Says …

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Liberty is being free from the things we don’t like

in order to be slaves of the things we do like.

Sat
1
Nov '08

Stains ..

Sometimes it’s words that take over, other times its photos.

Right now, my tongue is tied and my pen is traumatised.  

http://fadwas-inspirational.blogspot.com/2008/11/my-kind-of-stains.html